Pretty things...

Dear Aven,

I found the dress your Aunt C bought for you. I was so nervous while I was pregnant with you that I decided dad and I would not buy things until we were 20 weeks pregnant but things didn't happen as we planned. I am so thankful Aunt C bought you the little pink ballerina dress. When I found it hidden in the back of a closet with my maternity clothes, it was the only item in the bag that made me smile. We do have something that was purchased just for you, well two somethings. A little pink ballerina dress and a stuffed yellow chicken. Love.

I love you and miss you,

Mom

Aven in Washington, DC ♥

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Aven and Aunt C ♥

at the Lincoln Memorial 

 

Pictures taken by Aven's Aunt C ♥

Birthday Girl

Aven's 1st Birthday Cake 

Aven's 1st Birthday Card



Pretty Letters from a pretty lady



Fall Aster that blooms during Aven's birth month,

planted in Aven's Garden by Tio Roy



A new birthday flower for Aven's Garden



Happy Birthday, Aven ♥

Dear Aven,

I can't believe a year has come. I have been anxious about this moment for a while now. I think I expected that I would somehow not survive this moment and that I would have been found crumbled on the floor but I am still here and I will survive. I am still not convinced that people can't die of a heartache but I know that I am meant to carry on with dad and your memory. You made me a mother and nothing will ever change that. Today, dad and I will celebrate along with your grandparents, how your little life changed us all. Even though we are sad sometimes, you gave us a new perspective on life and a new hope. As someone dear to us has said many times, we hurt and grieve so much because we loved so much.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes...

I miss you.

I love you always.

Happy 1st Birthday, baby girl ♥

Always,

Mom

Sigh...

A year ago today, my water broke and I knew that my journey with Aven was about to end.

Sigh...

My heart hurts today. All I can do is ask God to walk this path with me this week. I hope that one day, my memory of this day won't always be so sad and that one day I will be able to just focus on the happy moments that I did get to have carrying Aven. One day...

Sigh...

A bee in the garden...

Aven's Garden has grown! Each time I look out the window, I can't help but smile.

 

A bee in the garden...

Pretty words...

Just a little something to make me smile, from Grandma Yaya...



10 days and counting...

Dear Aven,

I thought that once October hit that I would be full of words. I thought I would have countless things to say and write about because the month of October is the month things changed for me and dad. But, I am at a loss for words. I miss you more than I have words to describe what I mean. Words are just that, words. I miss you. Dad misses you.

Love you always,

Mom

From Holly ♥

October 15th ♥

Our first October 15th. The day was a very emotional day for me. I really don't have too many words to say about it other than I am thankful and blessed to have the support I have from D, my mother and my friends, new and old.   ♥ Aven  ♥