March 18th

Dear Aven,

I can't help but think of what would have been had you lived. I will probably "would have" forever when it comes to my baby girl. I am blessed for all I have today but you are still going to always be missing. I miss you terribly and I love you.

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it... E.E Cummings

Always,

Mom

Sigh...

Dear Aven,

Am missing you more than usual on this dreary Sunday. Maybe it is that March is here or that your due date looms as it will every year. A woman sent me a stuffed bear that weighs as much as you did, maybe it is that. Those 11 ounces sure feel heavier than I remember. It has been 499 days since I held you last...sigh. I miss you.

Love you,

Mom